[Verse]
It's taken me way to long to realize
But I've finally figured out
There's no way this world will ever stop
Giving me things to be sad about
My teenage angst is gone
Replaced with grown man rage
And I'm afraid this pit in my stomach won't ever really go away
But I guess it's all just part of growing up
I'm still as fragile as I've ever been
But god knows it's taken me long enough
To feel these emotions
But now I'm hoping
A step in the right direction
Will be enough to teach me my lesson
And ultimately fix what's broken

[Chorus]
Cause I'll let you down
If you let me let you down
No if's ands or buts about it
I can change but I sure doubt it
At least for now
Because at least in this instance
You've figured out
That I'm most comfortable when I'm distant

[Verse]
Everyone I idolize is fucked in the head as bad as I am
So what does that mean for me
Especially in the short turn
Cause I fear the future just like everybody else
But I've got to get there first
And I don't like who I've become
I can't stand the sight of myself
Or the thought of how I disappoint you everyday
And I'm sure tomorrow won't be the exception
No matter what bullshit I try and throw your way
But you'll always be there
Right there next to me
With a smile on your face
Asking how my day was
Or what's in my head
At least until I finally push you away
And I don't wanna push you away
I don't want to
I don't want you
I just want you

[Chorus Two]
To be my cellphone
I'll carry you everywhere in my pocket
And I can't go a day without you
But I'll still treat you like an object
It's what I'm used to
And deep down it's what you really want
Because when it comes to instinct you think you actually have a shot

[Bridge]
You ask me why I get like this
I wish that I could tell you
I promise I'll snap out of it
At some point don't I have to
I swear it's never been this bad
So I don't know what to say
The pain isn't permanent
But damned if it doesn't feel that way
Cause after tonight
My car smells like I'll be driving
To work with my windows down
B it's not surprising
That I can see my breath
Or that it reminds me
Of the smoke in my lungs
From the nights I've put behind me

[Outro]
I'll let you down
If you let me let you down
No if's ands or but's about it
I can change but I sure doubt it